First Semester Milestone: Progress Review

Hello everyone 🙂

I am really neglecting this blog when it comes to posting, college and work are pretty much taking over my life but I’m trying to fit everything in. Part of the problem with writing posts here is that I usually write them in a notebook before I start typing so i know exactly what I’m doing and what i’m saying, not this is totally off-the-cuff for me; I guess I need to stop being so much of a perfectionist in my blogs if I want them to exist at all.

The past few weeks I have to admit have been really hard for me. I don’t mean just in terms of college either, I’m just getting really anxious about things that never used to worry me and I just don’t know how to deal with that. It’s tough going and it’s having an affect on my relationships with others, but I’m trying to work on it. Anxiety is a strange feeling for someone who has never had that kind of a problem before- I am completely sympathetic now that I have experienced it first-hand!

Last week saw the milestone of my progress review. This happens mid-way through the semester to see how you’re getting on with the studio project. While the outcome of mine wasn’t the absolute worst it could have been, I still wasn’t too happy with it. I was floundering in my work because I was trying to keep my tutors happy but by doing that I wasn’t happy. Going to L.S.A.D. was all i had ever wanted to do with my life and I spent half of the first semester not knowing what I was doing and I was miserable because of it. Today however, marks a change in thinking.

Over the weekend I had a bit of a meltdown- I won’t bore you with the details, just a personal rock bottom- I emailed my mentor. Mentors are different from tutors in the sense that they are not the ones that are going to be marking your work, instead they help you if you have any difficulties of any nature even if that means referring you to someone like a doctor or a counsellor.  They are basically a support that is there for you to lean on if you need it, and if not, you have the comfort of knowing they’re at hand if you need them.  I hit the jackpot with my mentor as he had previously been the Head of First Year and only left the role to fill in for L.S.A.D.’s Head of Art & Design as he has taken a job for the year with Limerick City of Culture. Mike (the mentor) is such a nice guy and really easy to talk to. After our chat this morning I came out of his office feeling relieved and that I had some idea of where to go from here.

If you follow my tumblr blog you will see I’ve had several changes of mind since the start of the academic year. This was part of the problem when it came to my college work as I was going through things so quickly nothing was being given a chance to develop and so no ideas that I had were getting off the ground. This morning’s chat has put my mind to rest as I go back to revisit some of the previous ideas that I overlooked in my haste to find something good.

A term often used in my uni is “vehicle”. This is in relation to how you convey your ideas; what vehicle are you using? In my case I have two strong potential vehicles that I might be able to tie together, those being shoes and books. This is going back to an idea I had a while ago about taking fairy tales and putting them in a modern setting- one of which involved Cinderella having her glass slippers draped over a telephone cable as seen in relation to a location where drugs are sold (I had a whole story I could go with here, but I’m not in art college to write stories and that’s kinda why I thought I should scrap the idea).  Shoes came up as an idea to revisit because there’s always so much that people can “tell” about a person from their shoes. Right now, I think I’m going to explore the idea of what if people’s stories were actually written on their shoes and that’s how you were able to tell so much about them. This telling of stories is how the idea of books ties in to the idea as well.

My, my this is a long blog post already. If anyone still reads this, could you let me know in the comment if you would prefer one long post once a fortnight or shorter posts scattered throughout the two weeks?

Anyway I think I’m gonna leave it at that for now. You can always keep up to date with what I’m doing on instagram or twitter too! Links are in the sidebar as always. I’m just gonna pop a few photos in now to keep you visually up to date!

Bokeh inspired photo on the way to college

Bokeh inspired photo on the way to college

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Dewdrops on a spiderweb

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Kilmainham Gaol

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The 1916 Corridor, Kilmainham Gaol

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Messing about with a close-up filter

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Fish-eye lens fun with Nicole

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The Milk Market

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My current assignment-writing set up

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The fish-eye lens in question

Taken during our weekend in Dublin

Pulling faces with Niamh and Conor

Until next time,

Laura

College Update

Hello everyone! It’s been a while.

The last week and a bit have been crazy in college, so let me just dive right in.

I was beginning to lose focus with my project and it was stressing me out- I don’t deal with stress too well- anyone who knows me can vouch for that!

So, instead of dwelling on this any longer I decided to go find one of my tutors to have a one-to-one tutorial. Easier said than done! Last Monday I emailed the tutor whose group I was in for this fortnight, asking for a tutorial the following morning. Long story short, it was awful. This was mostly due to his attitude which really got to me- none of my work seemed worthwhile- I was more or less told to start from scratch. This would have been fine, if an ideas isn’t good, fair enough. What I had a problem with was the way he questioned my methods of doing things, saying stuff like I am “too structured”, that my mind maps are “too neat”, overall, I am “too organised”. I don’t know, the way I reacted at the time wasn’t good and I wasn’t going to get work done in that mindset so I left college early and went out to see some friends in U.L. They made my day much better and I am so happy I have people to pick me up when I’m down. 🙂

After the initial period of “what the fuck is his problem?” and all of the other things I was thinking, I began to come to terms with it. I started brainstorming lots of ideas again and I think once I finished those I was hopeful about starting something new.

On Thursday we had a group talk with Jason Nash, a second year who had gone through the same horrific process as us, just a year earlier. Though he claims he is crap at public speaking, he was quite good at it. He was full of information and good advice for us. It was well worth attending. Check out his tumblr here.

I also caught up with Jason as I was leaving my studio on Friday and had another little chat- he really is a sound guy and very willing to help. He provided a good end to a week that was challenging at best.

I’ve come to realise that I’m going to have to update my college blog much more frequently than I initially thought and so I won’t be able to post absolutely everything here, but here are my mind maps and the progression of Yoda over the past week or so- not that Yoda is relevant anymore! But anyway, enjoy!

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I’ve decided to look at doing a take on modern fairy tales. Hopefully things will go okay from here, I’ve started researching so I hope it won’t be time wasted.

Until next time,

Laura