#BEDA August 31st: The Best Thing This Month

The last day of #BEDA! Sad to see it over and I know I got a little behind in my posts and stuff but I still really enjoyed doing this. Thank you, Emma!

Today’s topic is the best thing this month. For me, the best thing this month was my 10-day trip to Belfast to see Ryan. I ended up spending so much time with Emma there, hanging out with the boys was good- I love getting to know them better. We also went to Chris and Alannah’s wedding and a heap of gigs. It was so good.

The day before I went home was also the day that I found out that I got into LSAD. I love that I was able to share that moment with Ryan, even though he was mostly asleep! Just an incredible feeling to be at the start of yet another new journey; to make new friends and create new art and just be happy in what I’m doing.

I was just so happy that I could get to spend that time with people I love and who I get to see way less than I would like.

Another great thing that has happened this month was being able to link up and connect with other bloggers who i otherwise would not have known about. It really gave me an insight into the lives of others and I’m appreicative of the opportunity to do that.

I guess that’s it for #BEDA.

Until next time,




#BEDA August 30th: Earliest Memory

Hello everyone!

Today’s topic is a bit of a difficult one for me. I have quite a bad memory and I know this is about your earliest memory and I can’t really fit them chronologically.

I guess there was the time of my brother’s christening when I was like, 3 maybe. 

I just remember sitting in the playroom in my house with my sister and all of my cousins and eating copious amounts of sweets and having a good time. I don’t have any photos at hand of the day but I just remember it being a good time.

Memory posts are such a fail for me!

Until next time,


#BEDA August 29th: Five Things I Cannot Live Without

Sorry for my lateness yet again! Work was hectic, sleep was required and life just got in the way!

Here are five things I can’t live without:

1. My bed: And no, somebody else’s isn’t the same!

2. Art supplies: How else will I occupy my mind?

3. The cool people I get to call my friends and family: They make the best things better!

4. The obvious food, water etc: Necessary, life-sustaining stuff!

5. Books: Usually in Canada I have no internet and I can go ages without it- not a problem but if I didn’t have anything to replace it with- like reading there would be trouble (and/or boredom)

Until next time, 


#BEDA August 28th: My Biggest Inspiration

Inspiration is one of those things that can be found everywhere, if you look hard enough. 

There are so many things in this world that inspire me, especially as an art student (am I milking that too much? Probably!) However, my biggest source of inspiration (and motivation) is my mother, my beautiful wonderful Caroline. 

As I mentioned yesterday (post here), Caroline overcame a massive challenge in her life and her attitude -generally speaking, but very much so during that time- was admirable to all. She never let cancer beat her or get the better of her. Never let any sign of weakness show.

My Mom also constantly supports and believes in me, no matter what aspect of my life. She was never the sort of parent to pressure me into doing something I didn’t want to do, be it in school or college and I’m so grateful for that. She only ever wants what’s best for me and I cannot fault her for that. She is someone who I know that no matter what I do she will be proud of me and the fact that I can lean on her when  I need just inspires me to do more; work harder- get to where I want to go.

I love her so much.

Until next time,


#BEDA August 27th: A Difficult Time I Had to Overcome

Today’s topic might hit a nerve with some people, and if you had asked me to talk about this subject a couple of years ago I wouldn’t have liked to either. Three years on, it’s important to be able to talk about these things. 

I remember the day so clearly. It was Tuesday October 4th 2011 and I was late home from school due to a Youth Council meeting, and hanging out with my friends Kaila and Stu afterwards. Stu was waiting to go see Footloose with his girlfriend, making jokes about people with loose feet and Kaila was waiting for the next bus home. Other than that, I can’t remember much of the conversation we had. Idle chit-chat; not important in the grand scheme of things.

I arrived home and went into my room. My mom asked me if she could talk to me upstairs, and as I slowly walked up the stairs in my house, I was wracking my brain for some idea as to why I was being summoned. I could not think of anything that I could be in trouble for and I was confused as to why we couldn’t talk about it downstairs.

I sat on my mom and dad’s bed and so did she. Looking at me straight in the eye, she told me that she had found a lump when we were on holiday in Canada that summer and she had now been diagnosed with Breast Cancer.

I sat there in shock as she asked me if I had any questions about it, telling me it was okay if I needed a cry. I looked up with a watered-down smile and asked “what’s for dinner?”

“I knew I could count on you to make me laugh” was her reply. Somebody had to be the comic relief, right?

From there until April of the next year were some of the worst and most difficult times of my life- I hated seeing my mom so unwell knowing there was nothing I could do to change it, that I couldn’t help her.

School was hard. Mom had called the guidance counsellor so the school knew what was going on. I didn’t let anyone know for quite a while just because I wanted normality. That however isn’t a good idea because that requires smiling on days when you only want to cry and having to listen to people talk about others who had died of cancer (Steve Jobs was the latest victim of the big C at the time).

The story follows the usual timeline, hair loss due to chemo, people trying to lighten the mood (or tell you they know how you’re feeling, when they clearly have no fucking idea), radiation and finally, getting the all-clear in the middle of 2012. It was such a relief.

Mom is okay now and she such an inspiration for me. She never let herself become negative or pessimistic and  she could have so easily let that happen.  Getting so close to losing someone just increases your love for them; for you family and friends. This awful thing that happened has also been a constant source of perspective for me when I think stuff is getting really bad- a bad day at work, not having the time to finish a project, whatever. This always reminds me that things aren’t as bad as they seem, every cloud has a silver lining.

One thing that I cannot forget to mention is the wonderful support my family had during this time. Friends were such a help to me; I leaned on them way more than any person should have to support another- and I am so grateful for that. Family were always around and we all had one another to talk to if we needed.  I cannot thank the people who helped us during that time enough. I have so much love for all of them.

I’m gonna leave it there- I think that’s enough reading for people! I just want people to know that it is something that you can live with and I would like to help anyone as much as I can when they have to deal with something like this. So that’s my difficulty. 

Until next time,


#BEDA August 26th My 5 Favourite Posts

…from my blog

Hello everyone! 

#BEDA is almost over- I can’t believe it.This month has been so much fun!

As I’ve mentioned before, my blog was very new when the #BEDA challenge began, so naturally most of my posts are #BEDA-related. I’m going to just choose 3 posts instead of 5 because I have very few to choose from!

In chronological order:

1. 20 Before 20: https://internetbrunette.wordpress.com/2014/07/22/20-before-20/

I have still a lot of this list to accomplish ( maybe I was too ambitious!) but I like challenging myself in new ways and when it’s in a public forum I think everyone tries a bit harder to complete goals.

2. 20 Facts About Me: https://internetbrunette.wordpress.com/2014/08/02/beda-august-2nd-20-facts-about-me/

I like this post because it gave me to opportunity to think about how I define myself and what I would share with people who I’ve never met before. It was also good to know that everyone else would be doing them too!

3.15 Things That Make Me Happy: https://internetbrunette.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/beda-august-9th-15-things-that-make-me-happy/

This list was such a good idea and I’m so happy that I took part in this challenge even if this post is the best thing that comes from it. I think that we all the potential to be miserable beings and it’s important to remember all the things that we have in the world to make us happy when we feel like that. While there is so much sadness in the world; there is also a great deal to be happy about.

Until next time,